Just got an itouch for 73 bucks!!!!

i have been m.i.a. for some time now… i miss you,

thought about how life keeps you busy and how time goes by so quickly when you are going 90 miles an hour on the highway of life. where does the day go and the months. i am amazed at how fast this year has gone by. its aug already when i remember new years eve like it was yesterday. i wish sometimes you can bottle up moments because there have been times i want to cherish that moment over and over again. aww if only.

lately i have been missing alot of things/people.

i miss spending time with my bff.

i miss goin out, its been a while since i was sick for two weeks. booo to kidney infections. they hurt. i felt like dying.

i miss school. believe it or not i miss going to class and learning something.

i miss love. i miss being in a relationship and the ups and downs of it all. the fights and the make up part. i miss being someones special girl.

i miss reading.

i miss having deep conversations

i miss being creative

i miss doing photography

i miss bein in love

i miss making out

i miss going out to dance clubs i know i swore them off and now i miss them go fig.

i miss playing a sport

i miss certain people in my life that i seldom talk to

i miss being connected, i feel so disconnected lately

i miss being able to wake up at 10

i miss being able to make my own schedule

i miss loving my job

i miss getting everything i wanted

i miss me! i havent spent me time in a while.

i need to catch up and make things happen….

conflicted

i cant make up my mind, i want him i dont want him. i feel confused but at the same time i know what i feel.

my heart says one thing and my head says another. who do i listen to my heart or my head. both give good arguements but with their thoughts and emotions i still feel conflicted.

i want to say NO but my emotions get the better of me and say YES.

everytime i see him, here we go again. how did he get so deep in my skin. how did i get so addicted to him. how did i not see it come again.

these lyrics sound bout where i stand right now.

I throw all of your stuff away,
Then I clear you out of my head,
I tear you out of my heart,
And ignore all your messages,
I tell everyone we are through,
‘Cause I’m so much better without you,
But it’s just another pretty lie,
‘Cause I break down,
Every time you come around,
Oh, oh,

(Chorus)
So how did you get here under my skin,
I Swore that I’d never let you back in,
Should’ve known better,
Than tryin’ to let you go,
‘Cause here we go, go, go, go again,
Hard as I try I know I can’t quit,
Something about you is so addictive,
We’re fallin’ together,
You’d think that by now I’d know,
‘Cause here we go, go, go again

You never know what you want,
And you never say what you mean,
But I start to go insane,
Every time that you look at me,
You only hear half of what I say,
And you’re always showing up too late,
And I know that I should say goodbye,
But it’s no use,
Can’t be with or without you,
Oh, oh,

(Chorus)
So how did you get here under my skin,
I Swore that I’d never let you back in,
Should’ve known better,
Than tryin’ to let you go,
‘Cause here we go, go, go, go again,
Hard as I try I know I can’t quit,
Something about you is so addictive,
We’re fallin’ together,
You’d think that by now I’d know,
‘Cause here we go, go, go again